September 10th, 2025 - Slacking
I am going through a bit of an episode so I had been slacking off when it comes to cleaning the apartment. The bathroom, specifically, I hadn't cleaned in a while. So yesterday when I was showering I saw a black worm on the floor. I almost died. I hate worms I hate them so much. If I could see one, that meant there were probaby many more I couldn't see. Then I started some flash deep-cleaning on the bathroom, moved everything and threw bleach everywhere. I googled it and those worms are the larvae of those bathroom flies you see every once in a while. Disgusting, I feel gross. I wish I could do the laundry more often too but I don't have a washing mashine and I have to pay to use the washer and the drier downstairs. I cleaned everything but I'm kind of scared now. It's difficult keeping everything clean, and meal prepping and organizing and eating and working and going to class and taking the subway and walking and having to do everything by myself. The curtains are mouldy but I hid it behind a wooden box, so I don't have to deal with it. I skipped class today, and I've been skipping at least once a week. I slept for a long time but I'm still tired.
My ex still messages me sometimes but I haven't been able to reply. I feel like they don't really want to talk to me. Or that it's fruitless. I feel so ashamed. Even though I want to talk...
I did buy some milk and made yogurt. It's very easy to make yogurt and I save a lot of money. I need to buy more fruit for yogurt smoothies, I'm hoping these will be my breakfast for a while. I went to krispy kreme with my friends this week too. Oh, I love their donuts. It's so far away and quite expensive too, though... If it was closer to my house, i'd go there more often. They're so good!! I want to make donuts but there's no space for kneading bread here... the mess I'd make.
My landlord has another apartment that he was renting as an airbnb, but the guys from that building have forbidden airbnb. So he offered to let me stay there for the same price, even though it's a bigger apartment! The problem is, It's further away from the subway station and i have grown really attached to this apartment. I don't want to stay further away from the subway station, My left foot has been hurting for a few days now and idk what it is about it, but I'd rather not walk a lot. Either way, since they're offering it for the same price I would like to visit the other apartment. It must be squeaky clean...