October 19th, 2025 - It doesn't work

It hurts so much to be disliked by the person you like the most in the world. but I also hate, hate,hate hate hate him. I hate him for all the excuses, the lying, for not caring about me anymore. Yes, I'm aware it's unfair for me to feel this way, it just makes me feel worse. We haven't talked since my little episode but i guess that's for the best. There's nothing to say. It's a weight off his shoulders. But I'm still thinking about it everyday. The craving doesn't go away. Perhaps noncontact is a lie.
There's a lot of stale bread at home. I'm making french toast. My only concern is if the bread is mouldy. My left foot was in a lot of pain during the week, so I thought I had to go see a doctor because I need to walk to class. But it stopped hurting during the weekend. And I bet it will start hurting again in the midst of a very busy week.
I'm worried about my future. How will I make money